Sunday, October 18, 2009

Lost weeks

After the excitement of completing the home study, the adoption effort ground to a halt, not as a result of any problems but simply the intrusion of the rest of our lives. October is a hellacious month for both of us with regard to our jobs, a convergence of multiple events, accelerating projects, and long days. As a result, we've made virtually zero progress in preparing our profile materials for the placement agency.

It's frustrating to have reached this point only to come to a screeching halt to deal with other things. It doesn't help that we've both been getting home so late from work lately. Forget about writing our birthmother letters or even writing brief entries in this blog...we barely have the energy to say hello and spend a few precious moments together before passing out at night and then waking up and starting all over again. Today was a grey cold Saturday tailor-made for working on the profile but I instead spent it at my desk working on work because there just doesn't seem to be time during the week to get everything done.

Something will need to change in the future. I'm not going to work so hard alongside my wife to bring a child into our lives only to never see them because I'm at work until 10 or 11 at night. I see my co-workers and I wonder how they do it. Some seem to spend all their time at work and not much with their children. Others are committed to their jobs but also make sure that nothing gets in the way of being a part of their children's lives. I think I prefer to be the latter as I just don't understand how the former can do that.

Of course, we have to find the time to complete the process but first I think I need to get some sleep.

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